I guess it would be a good idea to move on, even if only to clarify for yourself the relationship you have with "creating". It may enable you to live in a more fulfilling manner and to create more meaningful works. I suppose it is better not to be highly attached to your image of your path in life if it is disrupting you. On the other hand maybe one must just push through. But to me it sounds like you should try "leaving behind" (especially since you're so scared of it) for the sake of going towards.
Sincerely,
someone who doesn't know you or your work, and is speaking in contradiction to the other replies on this post.